really. me. just a simple little girl living in a not so great place. i whine, complain, bitch and yell. and yet- here i have amazing friends. they've got my back, and ive got theirs- no matter how near or far we are.
But recently...they've really proven how loyal and how great they are.
2 weeks ago, my second dog died. His name is Cruise- dont forget it. he was a stupid annoying dog...and yet..i loved him..
My mom has been having problems with her right hand. seems she has a torn ligament and cannot do anything with it. i mean nothing. it hurts so much she says. and she is a tough woman. she has yet another month to wait to see if she needs surgery. we are going to put our house up for sale- Sunday. so much needs to get done, and i dont mind doing it all myself. but still...its a horrible problem.
Also, my Grandmother on my mom's side isnt doing well either. Her brain tumor came back in the same spot for a 3rd time. she is so out of it, and its so sad to hear her talk. she doesnt even realize whats going on. she doesnt wanna talk to people or do anything. and my grandfather isnt much of a help. My uncle im sure isnt happy but i pray for him to get by.
Last week my mom and i finally went on a Cruise. a long, well-deserved vacation. it was amazing- and we are sad to be back.
Also, my other friend, the one where she and i have had problems, are finally repairing the friendship. it happened by random, and that night on aim & myspace was a hard one; i cried, cussed, and nearly broke my computer. but in the end, i believe it worked out.
So what does all that have to do with my friends?
They've cheered me up, and kept me smiling. if it weren't for them, i dont know where i would be- or what i'd be doing.
So i suppose your thinking "Well good for you, shit happens" and i in no way disagree. lots of shit happens. to me, and to others.
i think we learn from that shit, and that shit actually keeps us going. it gives us reason to live and strive to be stronger so we dont have to depend on others all the time.
So to all of you who have ever made me smile
To all of you who ever once made me warm inside
To anyone who has said "cheer up" or "Im here for you"
To my friends
To the ones i love most